Have you ever been so brave, so courageous, so sure that you seek out a Catapult?
I see people who would go up to the tallest bridges, highest mountain, ride a helicopter, only to jump down that peak.
I am envious of these people's sense of adventure, and the lengths they would go through to feel that rush!
They are so sure. So trusting. So damn brave.
I want to be like them.
So I did. I went and reach out to the universe and asked to be catapulted.
Finding a catapult was easier than I thought. It is anything that you had been wanting to do, something you had been dreaming about, something that has been brewing inside of you.
Once you find it, you slowly get yourself ready. You strap yourself in. You signal you're ready. And there it goes. You are catapulted.
The force it take it release you in the air will knock the breath out of your chest.
Upon release, you are flying.
The sky is beautiful
It is vast, it is never ending
Truly the sky is the limit
The wind feels freeing
The clouds comforting
The view is magnificent
I want to stay up in here
Carry me wind, let me fly
Wind alone cannot carry us through. For it is always so true, what goes up must come down no matter who.
And down I go
A fall so slow i watch my emotion go
Why?
What did I catapult myself into?
Where am I going?
How do I fall?
Panic
Anxiety
Fear
Surrender
My eyes can't keep up with the majestic view as I fall
My body is resisting, kicking, screaming
I don't want to fall
Thump
Face down
Darkness
Silence
There is a sense of comfort in darkness. A sense of comfort in silence. I stayed there in the dark, wallowing in my own shadow. Just me and my thoughts. Up there in the air is not reality. Down here in the dark is not reality.
Deep breaths
I am whole
Yes, I am hurting
I had been in the dark before
I landed face down before
I must get up
I must face where the catapult had landed me
I chose to get catapulted
I trust myself
I never fail myself
My mind is strong
My mind has an unbreakable will
One limb at a time
My mind summoned my arms
You must reach for your heart
It's all going to be alright
Wrap yourself with those arms who had reached far and wide
Your arms are strong it will carry you
Your hands had touched so many lives
They are there for you
Feel the earth beneath you
It's rich it will nourish you
My mind summoned my legs
Bend it, stretch it, kick it, find your space
Your legs had taken you places high and low
Your feet has a rhythm that will navigate where you are supposed to be
My mind has summoned my body
Slowly I pull myself up
I see light
I see greens
Plenty of greens
Shadows still around,
but they are behind me, next to me
I might not be upright for now,
But my strong mind
My strong body
They never fail me
I will be alright
It is time to live in this catapulted life. It's time to get into the adventure of a lifetime. I am ready. I am willing.
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